Journal #165: Someday, the day will come when I stop writing in this diary.
Someday, the day will come when I stop writing in this diary.
Even as I write like this, I am defining and compartmentalizing myself.
I write to organize my thoughts and to remember, but it ends up defining who I am.
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Another issue broke out. The Shield Necklace is a complete problem..
An angle that was perfectly fine when done in resin shifted due to the weight of the silver.
Because of that, the angle naturally got distorted, and it doesn't come out in the desired shape.
On top of that, using 3 pieces makes it look too plain.
For now, after rechecking the necessary things tomorrow, we decided to settle on whether to go with 1 piece, 5 pieces, or 7 pieces.
I also finished the design for the second Key Chain. I also adjusted the size of the Egg Earring slightly.
I decided to meet that lady on Thursday. I had originally thought about dropping off the castings in the morning and meeting her in the afternoon..
But since she mentioned having another schedule in the afternoon, we decided to meet in the morning.
Wondering if we'll be able to talk longer than last time, I decided to go to Jongno a bit earlier on Thursday.
I'll head over quickly and come right back.
I don't know what kind of conversation we will end up having, but it would be a lie to say I'm not looking forward to it.
Even so, I'm not placing high expectations on it either. I think I'll be satisfied just releasing and sharing our thoughts with each other.
As you know, there are things you can only realize or gain insight into by actually speaking them out loud.
The temperature is rising up to 38 degrees. Tomorrow I have to keep going back and forth to the office..
I'm worried I might get exhausted quickly. Still, I want tomorrow to come fast so I can handle it well.
A life that looks forward to tomorrow, while remaining deeply immersed in the present.
Isn't this the direction in which a human being ought to live?
When I say I look forward to it, I don't mean expecting something specific.
It just means that an unknown future.. seems like it will be fun.
Because it hasn't been decided yet.
- Thank You, Father! Always, as I reach the end of my runs, certain thoughts come to mind.
I realized those thoughts are just like when I approach the end of a seasonal product line.
Because it's the end, because I'm almost at the destination, I shouldn't walk—I need to push even harder and run.
Thank You. Thank You for creating this morning running routine for me.
Wow, it's seriously way too hot. When I was running in the morning, it was still relatively cool though..
And when I went to the workshop in the morning, it wasn't too bad either..
When I went back at 11 AM after running the printer, the inside of the office was completely like a sauna.
I literally took a shower in sweat while working. Still, I wrapped up the Key Chain design in my own way!
I have to reprint the earrings though.. They aren't coming out well from the printer.
One specific part keeps failing to form properly. Still, since it's almost finished anyway!
The Shield Necklace also needs to be reprinted, but since the design remains the same, it should be fine.
Now all that's left is for the resin paint to arrive, and to execute the painting well.
I really hope it turns out great!
- Thank You, Father. Even though the weather is at its absolute hottest, I was able to keep moving thanks to You.
Nothing major happened today either. It was a very uneventful day.
Tomorrow will probably be a bit busy.
Since each day goes by so plain and smoothly, I have nothing much to write.
Today, this thought came to me.
That 'knowing' is also defining myself through speech.
Lately, it feels as though I've found a certain path, but that confusion has disguised itself in a different direction.
In other words, whenever a thought arises, it feels as if it's my own greed or desire.
Let's take a relationship as an example.
Even if Father gives me a word to meet someone,
the doubt arises that it might just be my own greed and desire.
I'm afraid of that—doubting everything.
On the positive side, this continuously refines my discernment.
And as for the solution, I also know that experience is the only way.
Only experience grows me. I must do the things I won't know unless I try.
And that moment is only now. It is not fear, but excitement for the unknown future.
Thank You, Father. Thank You for continuously expanding and refining my spiritual discernment.
40 degrees.. Still, if I can just hang in there this week, it'll at least get cooler.
Today I had a lunch appointment with that person from church, and it was enjoyable.
I feel like I ended up talking too much about myself again.. which feels a bit regretful.
However, in the beginning, she shared a lot about herself with me.
And I was grateful that she brought up first a part where a misunderstanding could have arisen.
Even though the conversation was less than two hours, it was so enjoyable and time flew by.
Forget the product photos.. Having a conversation is much more important.
However, it seemed like she didn't fully understand Father either.
And I just gained an insight while praying.
Father is One who cannot be explained, even if you try to put Him into words.
Because He transcends any attempt to confine Him within the framework of language..
In other words.. It's just like Laozi saying that the Dao that can be told is not the eternal Dao.
Anyway, I want to talk with her again. For longer.
Maybe I want to go on a date with her.
I'm not saying I 'like' her. It's just an 'attraction.'
I'm no longer too young to judge everything hastily.
Not being young doesn't mean I've aged.
It means that now I only follow Father's word. Being young and being mature.
I don't want to define myself with these two words. At times I am young, and at times I am mature.
However, those two words don't seem suitable to define who I am.
As I wrote, there is one thing I came to realize.
A day will surely come when I stop writing this diary.
Even as I write like this, I find myself defining and compartmentalizing who I am.
I write to organize my thoughts and remember, yet it ends up defining me.
However, it doesn't seem like that time is just yet.. though that time will surely come.
- Thank You, Father. You have truly given me a wonderful relationship.
On top of that, You have allowed me to meet someone who fits the exact image I have always wished for.
Thank You.
Arghhh.. I finished all my work. Even the tasks I was planning to do next week..
The only remaining tasks are just going to Jongno and finishing up the works at the workshop.
But my acquaintance went on vacation.. and today I retrieved the products from Jongno.
Everything is finished except for the Hammer Earring.
Now all that's left is how to fill the resin and do the painting..
I could have tested it today, but in 40-degree weather, I just couldn't stay in the workshop.
Besides, my physical condition isn't good right now either.
It seems the sinusitis that started this week has turned into a cold.
My throat is a bit swollen, the roof of my mouth is starting to itch, and I have a runny nose.
It feels like a cough is gradually starting too. I'm quickly supplementing with Vitamin C, but.. I hope I get better soon.
So today, instead of going to Friday service, I plan to go to sleep early to let my body recover.
- Thank You, Father. Thank You for always showing me the right path.
Fuck flu.
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EarringFix the designPrintCast
Key ChainSketchDesignFinish DesigningPrintFix something wrong
Figure out what resin or epoxy we should buy
- 상표 등록 (In Progress)
- 2nd Season
- Necklace
- Finish the shield necklace
- Take the pics
- Shield
- Wearing
- Excalibur
- Crown
- Bandage 2
- Shield
- Make the posters
- Excalibur
- Crown
- Bandage 2
- Shield
- Upload
- To Website
- To Amondz
- To Q10
- Earring
- Cast
- Key Chain
- Cast
- Necklace
- Reorganize the e99 website, like pics til it’s done for every product
- Retake the photos of the earring that is on it.
- Retake the pic of the Ramen necklace
- Organize The Angle of Season 2 STL Files.
Translate the whole journal post from KR to ENG
- Renew a blog constantly
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- Make a list of what I wanna write in this blog journal.
민방위 알아보기Finish reading the book I’ve been reading
- Make the Bank Account (Next Month)
- Have two jobs.
- Read Half of the book I bought.
- Add a trash list I should throw away.
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