-Wednesday-

My body has been out of shape from Monday to today.

I can’t work enjoying myself and my eyes are still pink eye.

I didn’t relieve tiring although slept for 10 hours.

Since last month, when I used a laptop to write this or do something after work, my vision got blurry.

I actually whined to my sister that was hard to live.

When I almost finished, I got choked up a bit but I put it up with it and I promised something myself.

First of all, don’t bad-mouse in front of someone.

Second of all, don’t whine in front of someone.

Third of all, pretending nothing if I’m tired.

All of these rules must be kept as a man and when I keep it, I can be a man.

Of course, I will throw every emotion in here, If I don’t, I might die.

Many people, books, and music say you should live a positive mind.

But I think those of as lying to us from rich people and entrepreneurs.

If you are living for yourself, your work, like things, it’s right they speaking.

But spending my time, and energy on someone as an employee but you should live positive?

It is like brainwashing.

I don’t want to spend it on someone. If I work hard, they will get many things but I won’t. I can’t sell my worth and time only a few dollars.

Money is not important. I want to work I like and my own despite no minimum wage.

-Thursday-

Today is also tough as well.

I’m disgusted with this team from today.

My throat was bad this morning and now as well. My vision is still blooming.

My owner asked me to work til next Friday even though I said my body has been out of shape.

In the first place, I mean when I decided to quit it, I said to them I could work only three days a week, not five days.

You know, if they need me, all they have to give me more money or an advantage.

how dare they say I should endure although I was sick for real.

He is a good man, but not a good leader.

You know, just because they give me some food or say thank you, it doesn’t mean a benefit.

I’m always in charge of a large yard, uphill, or making lines harder using a heavier and uncomfortable lawn mower.

I think they are thinking of me in that role naturally.

because they haven’t asked me where I want to work.

So they give me the benefit other than someone? only get more than one dollar? That was also raised it by the previous owner.

I’ve been in charge of harder work since April while they were taking over.

but I’ve taken it only one dollar more than someone who started just now. Are you kidding me?

nevertheless, he said he was considered me.

To be honest, I pulled up with this work and care about them. If I open my mouth, I must fight them.

You know I’m weak. I should endure everything. only two months.