{"id":13777,"date":"2026-03-15T18:55:58","date_gmt":"2026-03-15T09:55:58","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/weami.kr\/?p=13777"},"modified":"2026-04-01T09:51:38","modified_gmt":"2026-04-01T00:51:38","slug":"journaling145","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/weami.kr\/en\/journaling145\/","title":{"rendered":"jOURNALING (\uc8fc\uac04 \uc77c\uae30) #145"},"content":{"rendered":"
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I had migraines again this morning. I think I shouldn’t sleep too long.\u00a0
I was late arriving home yesterday, around 12:00 AM, so I couldn’t wake up as usual.\u00a0
That’s why I woke up at 10 AM. Ha… fuck.\u00a0<\/p>

My partner signed the new contracts. Everything is going well.\u00a0<\/p>

When I was praying during the worship, I choked up again.\u00a0
I know my feelings well; I know how to compliment myself and comfort myself.\u00a0
I forgave everyone I know, but not myself.
It was the first time I realized I hadn’t forgiven myself for a long time.\u00a0
So I prayed about it, and I choked up.<\/p>

You know what? I realize something now:\u00a0
if you criticize yourself, don’t try to make yourself disappear.
He is also yours, so forgive him.<\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t

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    We dissolved our business partnership. It was easy.
    Now I have more responsibility than before.
    I will grow this business, but God will do it, not me.<\/p>

    I think SEO is not important for our website.
    What matters most is a schema, I guess.
    So I’m setting it now. The AI searching system is being used more than before.<\/p>

    Btw, I took a pic of our croissant ring with a friend.
    I should do something creative.
    I have a big picture, but I don’t know if I can make it.
    Even though I’m not sure, I will try.<\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t

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      I woke up late again. I think when I use my brain a lot, it makes me too tired.<\/p>

      Btw, I made a poster of a croissant ring! I need to improve my drawing style.
      I found my style. I will improve it.<\/p>

      Nothing I did today. I couldn’t go to the office because I woke up late.
      Tomorrow, I have plans with people who go to the same church.<\/p>

      I actually don’t like meeting more than three people, but I will try it.
      It could be different. They are completely new people, so I wonder.<\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t

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        Today I experienced a no-show. It was the first time in my life.
        But strangely, it didn\u2019t bother me.
        Instead,
        it gave me the chance to have a deeper conversation with the group leader, and that was good.<\/p>

        Ninety percent of my thoughts are probably wrong anyway.\u00a0\u00a0
        So maybe it\u2019s okay to just try things without worrying too much.<\/p>

        She said she was busy with work and simply forgot.\u00a0\u00a0
        Well\u2026 even if there was another reason, she didn\u2019t seem like someone who would lie.<\/p>

        Hmm\u2026 on my way home, the devil whispered to me again.
        \u201cIf someone doesn\u2019t respect you, you shouldn\u2019t respect them either.\u201d
        But even this side of me, I chose to forgive. I prayed and decided to surrender it to God.
        Even so, I will still love and respect that person as my neighbor.<\/p>

        There are enough reasons for me to ignore them. But I don\u2019t want to do that.
        In fact, they might feel worried about this situation,
        so I want to let them know that they don\u2019t have to worry.<\/p>

        God\u2026 I have forgiven the evil within me. I surrender even that to You.
        May my life be filled only with Your grace, blessings, love, and glory.<\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t

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        1. Thank You, God, for taking away all the evil within me.<\/li>
        2. Thank You, God. Your love is enough for me.
          I have even gained the courage to be disliked by someone.<\/li>
        3. Thank You, God. Only now do I realize that Your love is greater than anyone else\u2019s.\u00a0<\/li><\/ol>\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t
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          I should be alone. Solitude is the only one I can have.
          No friends. No girls. No network. Just solitude with God.<\/p>

          It’s not loneliness. I know it, but it’s a sad thing, you know.
          There’s no one with whom I can have a conversation about my feelings and my pain.
          Only God hears me.<\/p>

          That’s enough. I don’t need anyone.<\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t

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          1. I appreciate God for being with me.<\/li>
          2. I appreciate God for hearing my pain and feelings.<\/li>
          3. I appreciate God for loving and recognizing me.\u00a0<\/li><\/ol>\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t
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              Yesterday I attended an overnight prayer service,
              and today I went to the evening service for the church building project.<\/p>

              Something strange happens after I know there’s an event at the church.
              Before I even start thinking, my body reacts first.
              There\u2019s no \u201cShould I go or not?\u201d
              If there\u2019s a prayer meeting, my reaction is simply, \u201cI should go.\u201d<\/p>

              But once I arrive in front of the church, I often find myself thinking,
              \u201cWhy did I come here?\u201d I don\u2019t really know why.<\/p>

              Recently, I even started thinking that the church feels like a playground to me.
              Prayer, for me, is something like play.
              Maybe it\u2019s because my heart feels at ease there.<\/p>

              It\u2019s true that church services sometimes disrupt my daily routine,
              But strangely, it doesn\u2019t feel uncomfortable.
              Yesterday, while I was praying during the evening service, I heard something like God\u2019s voice.<\/p>

              \u201cDo whatever you want.\u201d<\/p>

              Maybe it was just a voice I created in my own mind.
              I don\u2019t think I have enough discernment yet.
              It wasn\u2019t as strong as the voice I heard during the retreat,
              but there was still a kind of trembling feeling, and it came in the same way as before.<\/p>

              Ninety percent of my thoughts are wrong anyway.
              So this time, I\u2019m just going to follow the words without trying to predict anything.
              I think I\u2019ve made this resolution many times before\u2026 haha.<\/p>

              Ah! DJing. The instructor I contacted before had actually replied to me, two weeks ago.
              I didn\u2019t notice it. So I reached out again, and yesterday they responded.
              It seems like I might be able to learn from them.
              I\u2019m planning to contact them today or tomorrow and hopefully meet soon.<\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t

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