Journal #166: Where does greed and desire end, and where does Father's word begin..
Where does greed and desire end, and where does Father's word begin..
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Yesterday was a complete nightmare..
starting with a cold and sinusitis, then indigestion and a headache, and just as the headache ended, a migraine kicked in.
Today was a day spent moving according to Father's word.
I woke up, did push-ups, went to the gym, and even went to the office to do some printing.
The result wasn't good, so I have to go print it again tomorrow.
I also have to go back to Jongno.. Sigh.. Father, please help me..
The resin for the shield seems like it will turn out better than expected. At least that's a relief.
On Friday, I plan to take product photo shoots together with her.
She willingly agreed this time as well. And this time, I'm planning to suggest something.
Instead of meeting under the premise of taking product photos, let's go on a real date!
Somehow, the word 'date' has been lingering in my mind and popping up around me lately.
Well.. judging by her KakaoTalk messages, she doesn't seem that interested in me..
But then again, that's just an image I created, and wouldn't it be possible that her personality is just not being big on texting?
I've always said I look for that 1%. Let's experience everything. Information gained through media is never accurate.
- Thank You, Father. Thank You for instilling courage within me!
I don't know why running in the morning takes so much effort out of me these days.
Would it be accurate to say I'm feeling a bit exhausted?
The Hammer Earring failed to print properly right from the 3D printing stage.
Sigh.. I was planning to make some progress today and finish it up in Jongno tomorrow..
As for the Egg Key Chain, it only needs casting now.
The Tower Shield Necklace wasn't showing the sharp, clean angles I envisioned, so I brainstormed with a colleague.
We decided to turn this piece into a Key Chain as well.
It was a relief because it actually turned out quite pretty that way.
I'm working on a Poster, but nothing comes to mind.
Is this the limit of my creativity.. Father gives me no inspiration.
He hasn't said a word for days. I remain stuck right here.
Is it time to move on to the next space?
Has something gone wrong? Is it time to reflect on my state again?
I don't know. For now, I'll just stay in this state of not knowing.
Until Father calls me again.
Thank You, Father. Even in Your silence, I know that this entire situation is Your will.
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Strangely, these days I've been waking up really easily in the morning again. Could coffee be the reason!?
Since there are quite a few capsules left at home, I've been drinking a cup every day except Sundays to use them up.
Anyway, I went to Jong-ro again today, but on the way, the pin of the Hammer Earring broke, so I couldn't drop it off..
Still, I managed to leave all the Key Chains. I hope they turn out well tomorrow.
Now I need to buy the resin.. but since couriers are off during the holiday period, ordering now won't do any good.
From now on, I should write down tasks without hesitation and buy what's needed right away.
Tomorrow, I'll go to Jong-ro and then head to church at 6 o'clock to take product photo shoots.
She mentioned she would get her ears pierced, but from what I can see, I don't think she will.
So this shoot will probably be the last one for this year..
Which means I won't really have a reason to ask her out after this.. so tomorrow, I'm just going to go for it!
As I mentioned last time, should I call it asking her on a date?
Well, staying passive is comfortable. But I dislike being comfortable and desire to see a change.
This is also something Father is guiding me to do. There is no failure or success—there is only success.
Even if it ends in what the secular world calls 'failure,' I will still gain new understanding through it.
Thank You, Father. Thank You for granting me the strength, courage, and boldness to transform and challenge the reality within my reach.
What happened today..
Ah! The Key Chains turned out better than expected!
So I don't need to reprint them—I just need to do the finishing touches and make the rubber mold.
All that's left now is the Hammer Earring. I'd love to go on Monday.. but since it's a holiday, I'll have to go on Tuesday.
I hope the Resin arrives quickly so I can get right to work!
6시에 있던 제품 사진 약속은 그분의 사정으로 인하여 7시로 밀렸다.
항상 이러셔서 그러려니 한다.
더 신경 쓰이는 건 오늘 내가 잘 말이나 꺼낼 수 있을까..
어쨌든, 결과는 내일 일기에 나올 것이다!
부디 좋은 소식이 적히기를 🙂
- Thank You, Father. Thank You for awakening in me boldness, courage, and godliness!
The result was an absolute disaster. I couldn't even bring up the word 'date'!
The build-up failed right from the start, so how could I have brought it up!
When I asked if she had any free days, she said no, so how could I ask!
Pathetically.. asking her on the stairs to the Friday service to spare some time..
And when she asked for the purpose, asking her back if such a thing was really necessary.
Ultimately creating an awkward silence inside the elevator..
Ah, I don't know. The conversation never even got proper closure.. so after getting home yesterday, I sent a KakaoTalk message, but there's no reply.
It always goes like this until she ends it with an emoticon..
So while I'm not clinging to this—though it might seem that way—I'm thinking about just calling her today to settle and close this once and for all.
Argh, I don't know. Where does greed and desire end, and where does Father's word begin..
- Thank You, Father. Thank You truly for giving me such a unique experience…
NecklaceTake the picsWearingExcaliburCrownBandage 2
Make the postersExcaliburCrownBandage 2
UploadSNS
EarringPrint
Key ChainPrintCast
Organize The Angle of Season 2 STL Files.
- 상표 등록 (In Progress)
- 2nd Season
- Necklace
- Upload
- To Website
- To Amondz
- To Q10
- Upload
- Earring
- Cast
- Finish Meteor Earring
- Get the rubber molds
- Egg
- Hammer
- Pavis Shield
- Key Chain
- Finish the shield key chain
- Get engraving
- Necklace
- Reorganize the e99 website, like pics til it’s done for every product
- Retake the photos of the earring that is on it.
- Retake the pic of the Ramen necklace
Make a list of what I wanna write in this blog journal.
- Renew a blog constantly
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- Update the work page
- Figure out the latest news on fashion, music, and etc
Read Half of the book I bought.Add a trash list I should throw away.Make the Bank Account (Next Month)
- Have two jobs.
- Finish reading the book I’ve been reading
- Cancel Clip Studio before 12/09
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Yearly
- eLEMENTOR pLUGIN ₩85,000
(oCTORBER) - cAFE24 hOSTING ₩60,000
(fEBRUARY) - SSL ₩40,000
(mARCH)
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uNESSENTIAL
- Lunch ₩24,000
Total ₩24,000
January ₩216,900
March ₩778,000
May ₩226,000
July ₩144,000
February ₩188,000
April ₩322,500
June ₩126,000
August ₩135,000
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